Sierra's date for her cath procedure has been set (you can read about the procedure here).
We are praying that the wacky wrong way vein is just a teeny tiny coffee stirrer size one that we can just forget about.
If you are focusing prayers, then the magic number is 1.4. The Qp/Qs ratio they are looking for has to be under 1.5 (if you want to understand more about these ratios and what it's about you can read here or here).
The date for the procedure has been set for December 21st. There will be some things we have to do the day before and she may have to spend the night.
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She's getting scared. I've talked her through it, put on my strongest face, acknowledged her fears, explained how it works and how this test is easy, very routine. She leans into my words and I hold her there, a rock against the winds that blow around us.
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I have been doing really well, until yesterday. Then it hit me, when the nurse described the pre-test, the visit early in the morning, the waiting we'd have, it hit me like a freight train.
I feel ridiculously childish, all I can think is I don't want this to be happening, that I don't want to go through this again, I don't want to, I don't want to.
I broke down, and suddenly it was 1999 and I was holding her in the hospital the night before the surgery, the first surgery, as lost as a bird blown off course by a hurricane.
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December 21st. I'll keep you updated and will live blog here on that date...
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It's okay to feel lost. When you least expect it, you'll get through it. I understand the unexplainable fear, firsthand. My support and thoughts are with you. Wishing your daughter the best results!
My husband had to have an emergency angiogram and stent procedure, and it was fairly quick and not too bad. Tell her it should be fine as it's a very routine procedure. Sending best thought, wishes and prayers to you all.
Our thoughts, our hopes, and our prayers are with your child.
Come on Merry Christmas.
Bill
Good luck Sierra! We are praying for you! Rudy, Victoria, and Sofia Garza
I think it's totally natural to feel the way you do--and whatever you do, don't make the mistake of trying NOT to feel that way. You have a right to feel the anguish you're feeling, and you have the right to wish this wasn't happening. I wish it wasn't happening too--but I am thinking positive thoughts and my very best wishes your way. (Your daughter is beautiful, by the way.)
Thanks for the descriptive update...will keep you both in continued prayers. "~"
Sierra is a trooper and so are you.
I imagine that there will be more times of breakdown and also strength...
Gosh, Dec 21st can't come quick enough!
Prayers and a huge hug from the east coast.
I will keep Sierra and you in my prayers. It's tough being a mom when your child is sick, let alone facing something like this.
Sure keeping you all in my prayers ♥
Breathe, I'm so sorry you both are having to face this. I understand about your anguish and need to sometimes just let it out; then, othertimes, be the strong one for her. That's so understandable. These days so many heart procedures are quite routine and performed frequently by very skilled medical professionals. I'm sure she will be in excellent hands and will do well. I, too, will be praying for her and you, and for a good test result. Hang in there!
I will be keeping you and Sierra in my thoughts. I'm sure everything will be all right. Still it's so hard when our children are involved in these procedures. It's okay for you to feel upset, it's only natural as a mother.
Sorry you're going through this. It was bad enough when she was a baby and didn't remember it, it must be so tough for her now that she is aware of what is happening. Poor baby. I will keep her in my thoughts and prayers. Both of you actually. It will all be okay. It does sound like the procedure is routine and easy. I'll pray, pray, pray that it's a tiny one that can be ignored. Hugs!
Keeping Sierra and your family in my thoughts. I'm sure everything will be just fine. Good luck.
p.s.I know I left a comment before, guess blogger ate it.
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